Unless something goes terribly wrong, my mini ebook will be available on Wednesday, April 3, 2019! The Beginning of the End of My Eating Disorder will include revised blog articles and some questions for readers to mull over after reading.
This is resonates with me right now. A family member is sick and doesn’t have much longer. It makes me realize that I need to enjoy life a little more and to not sweat the small stuff. Eat the damn cake! Dance in the rain! Laugh and love to your heart’s content! #enjoylife https://t.co/rQxuPRiMk8
— Deborah Raphael (@mymindmybody1) March 28, 2019
My eating disorder was multi-faceted. I restricted food, obsessed over my weight, and over-exercised, but one thing I never did was binge. Sure, I overate after a period of restriction, but I never binged in the traditional sense of the word. When I joined different online eating disorder groups, I noticed that people used “binge” loosely, throwing around the term when referring to going a little overboard with food.1 That would be like saying my restriction was akin to not eating until dinner was ready. It was so much more than that though and I knew bingeing would be no different. Curiosity got the best of me and questions began forming in my brain. Why does someone binge? What happens during a binge? What does it feel like afterwards? I needed answers and went to the best sources out there: the National Eating Disorders Association and those who have suffered through it.2 …
Every part of me serves a purpose and I frequently take my body for granted. I delve into this on my blog in the article “My Body: A Marvelous Machine“!
I used to feel so guilty about breaking one of my food rules. Now I no longer have guilt about eating, but I may feel regret sometimes.