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How My Perfectionism Fueled My Eating Disorder

How My Perfectionism Fueled My Eating Disorder

I have two personality traits that I know I need to keep in check. One is that I am a perfectionist and the other is that I care what people think of me. In this video, I share how these traits fueled my eating disorder and how I deal with them now.

“The Beginning of the End of My Eating Disorder” Is Now Available!

“The Beginning of the End of My Eating Disorder” Is Now Available!

In her honest and open blog, Deborah Raphael delves into how, after dieting herself into an eating disorder, she got fed up with being hungry and miserable and decided to break free. This compilation of personal essays is the first in a series that explores the emotional and physical battles that arise with an eating disorder and the often frustrating journey towards recovery. Not only will this series provide a glimpse into the harsh world of extreme dieting and eating disorders, it will also reassure those who suffer that they are not alone in their fight.

In The Beginning of the End of My Eating Disorder, Deborah candidly describes her struggles with accepting her eating disorder and starting the recovery process. With the help of intuitive eating, seasoned professionals, and an ever-patient husband, Deborah starts on her journey of making peace with food and her body despite her reluctance to part with her eating disorder.

Included in this compilation are several questions and activities for readers to digest as they consider their own relationship with food and their bodies.

What Exactly Is Binge Eating?

What Exactly Is Binge Eating?

My eating disorder was multi-faceted. I restricted food, obsessed over my weight, and over-exercised, but one thing I never did was binge. Sure, I overate after a period of restriction, but I never binged in the traditional sense of the word. When I joined different online eating disorder groups, I noticed that people used “binge” loosely, throwing around the term when referring to going a little overboard with food.1 That would be like saying my restriction was akin to not eating until dinner was ready. It was so much more than that though and I knew bingeing would be no different. Curiosity got the best of me and questions began forming in my brain. Why does someone binge? What happens during a binge? What does it feel like afterwards? I needed answers and went to the best sources out there: the National Eating Disorders Association and those who have suffered through it.2

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